And still you wonder why…

Let’s be honest, it was never what one would consider a normal relationship. But at least there used to be *some* kind of connection no matter how strange… Funnily enough, when we were children, you pretty much treated us like adults – I don’t ever remember you speaking to us in a childlike fashion but

Navigating a new life without you…

This week I lost my best friend in the world. My partner in crime. The one that has been by my side for over 12 years. The snaggely little toothed monkey who I desperately loved. The beautiful little soul that saved me as much as I saved him. And in turn, I lost another little

An illuminating trip

Lyon has long been one of my most favourite French cities, having spent considerable time there whilst studying in Grenoble. Something which now, seems like many lifetimes ago. And for my 50th birthday in July, my brother and sister outdid themselves by giving me the present of a trip there. Accompanied by them both, no

Take me back to London

After over two months, I’ve only just realized that i didn’t even update you about my trip back to the UK at Christmas. And let’s face it, after 5 years, it probably deserves at least a cursory mention but actually perhaps so much more than that… This trip encompassed every single anxiety I have in

The dreaded “firsts” of loss

Today marks the first year anniversary of the loss of a beloved friend whose entire family I know and love beyond. And today I send them all of my positive thoughts and strength. Because I know what the dreaded “firsts” are like. The first anniversary, the first birthday, the first Christmas. And in the beginning,

In loving memory of Jake the Mockodile

I found this today – I wrote this years ago and it was published in a dog magazine of some sort as a kind of warning about being careful what you wish for when it comes to puppies. Jakey went to the rainbow bridge more than 10 years ago but the memories I have of